Self Talk (1)

 hey, can we talk?

na, i don't really wanna talk right now
that's okay, you never really did, i've been screaming every day "please let me out!!"
hold up, let you out? you couldn't protect yourself i was protecting you...
you were protecting me?!
yes protecting you, everybody in this world was rejecting you, nobody out here could accept you
no, everyone could, except you. that's the problem that you have man, you build walls up and hid behind the shame and i guess that i'm partially to blame, i don't know what to say
don't explain! you're making no sense to me, it kind of all just sounds like a guess to me...
bro, your trauma made me just a memory, ain't nobody in this world remembers me
so you wanted them to hurt you?
man that's not what i'm saying...
well you basically are every time that you told me i took it too far, and your ex left you cause you're way too emotional
Old parker: man i did what i was supposed to do
Parker: no you didn't! the world made you hit your limit, and then i got distant. that's what i'm tryna tell you but you just won't listen
Old parker: what i'm tryna tell you is we're both broken, my heart's open, yours is closing...
Parker: i don't give a damn if my heart is frozen!
Old parker: you don't wanna be yourself?
Parker: i had to free myself, because it just kept happening!
Old parker: go see a therapist instead of just rappening, or it'll just keep happening!
Parker: you don't think i ever get tired of maskin' it?!
Old parker: i don't care if you do cause the more that you are means the more that i'm vanishing...and i really just want myself back again

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